Its been 2 years since I last wrote here. Well a lot has happened in these 2 years. The first batch of Ihya Academy graduated with 3 Aalims and 1 Aalimah. 2nd batch of 8 students is in progress with the students of the first batch teaching them.There are 1500+ fatawas online on NafseIslam now. I have been writing answers to the questions posted to me from across the world.

Alhumdulillahi ala zaalika.

in sha ALLAH, I will be writing about them in detail sometime soon.

100+ and counting

Its been ages since i wrote about anything on my blog.Actually blog was the only way to express my feelings but now i have really been blessed with some good friends with whom i could share my feelings and hence didn't find the need to blog.

It was around 4 months back when a brother contacted me for the English booklet I wrote on Allama Fazle Haq Khairabadi.After that we became very good friends and later found out the we have so much in common.

The brother is from one of the largest AhleSunnat website with more than 60,000 visitors per month, NafseIslam .He and his another friend, who is founder of the website urged me to take up the Mufti Service they started on their website as the Mufti they were looking for was not in town and questions were pouring in. Finally I took up the task with the name of ALLAH and today Alhumdulillah I have completed more than 100 audio fatwas: Alhumdulillahi ala zalika

May ALLAH give me Ikhlas and protect me from errors in replying to questions.

I present the sawaab of these 100+ fatwa's to complete ummat-e-muslima,especially Huzur Sayyade Aalam SallallahuAlaihWassalam ,Khulafa-e-Rashideen,All Sahaba,All A'imma,Huzur Imam-e-Azam,Huzur Gaus-e-Paak & Huzur Khwaja Gareeb Nawaz, Imam-e-AhleSunnat & Mufti-e-Azam Hind raziALLAHuTa'alaUnhum.

May ALLAH, with the barkat of this service, protect me in this world and after :Aameen

tanha :(

Its been a longtime,being alone.

Some of the Sunni organizations have asked me to join them.But very frankly,first love is first love.I cant give my all love & dedication to any other organization.

I am all alone now.Late night from 11pm to 12MN, I am up with my laptop,my books and my students teaching them old Arabic scripts.

This is what I'm doing these days,out of people,out of lime light.

Dil Mein Ho Yaad Teri,Go Sha-e-Tanhaayi Ho

Fir To Khalwat Mein Ajab,Anjuman Aaraayi ho!

Ramzan 2011

Alhumdulillah Im seeing 26th Ramzan of my life now!

This ramzan is quite calm as compared to previous years,as I have left behind the group I was associated with.The period between last ramzan to this ramzan has been disastrous for me.I did some of the greatest mistakes I never imagined even in my dreams.

Today after taraveeh,I offered 2 raka'at Salatut Tauba and make sincere tauba for all the mistakes I have done so far. May ALLAH Azzawajal give me istiqamat over my Tauba and make this Ramzan zaria-e-nijaat for me : Aameen

I know ghosts of past will haunt me,I beg ALLAH azzawajal to protect me from them:Aameen

posses-ism

I have always being a victim of posses-ism.When I was in school I had possessive friends around me, when I moved to college, again, had possessive friends and when i moved to other part,the religious part of my life, again I could find super possessive friends.

I was never possessive. In fact I hated posses-ism.But now I guess even I have grown this trait. I was wondering what makes us possessive,it is the fear to loose the person or something else?I don't know.

Every person has a right to live the life as per his wish,No body can direct him,this was my answer to my possessors.They got hurt,some even cried, though I knew they did everything for me and would do anything for me.

Then why I'm having this feeling now?Is its because I never cared about the feelings of my possessors,and this is result of that?

Split personality

per Wikipedia:

Dissociative identity disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis and describes a condition in which a person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities (known as alter egos or alters), each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment.

I guess I am also suffering from Split personality disorder.When I am at Office,I am different.
When I am at Home,I am Different. When I am with friends,I am different & When I am with other friends I am different.And every time totally different. Am I faking to myself or to the world?

I change so many faces every now and then.Is it only me or other people also experience this? Sometime I understand the amanat I have and sometime I totally forget that I'm a human. One moment I am with friends in Imama & Jhubba and other moment roaming with my friend in T-Shirt & Jeans.

I am tired of these changing faces & personalities.Why cant I stick to one,my true self?I Finally want to stick one face,my true face.I know its difficult,very difficult but I have to do it now.

The night of Shab-e-Bara'at is approaching fast.Book of deeds of previous years will be closed and new book will be opened and fate for next one year will be written. When I think of Book of deed which is going to be closed I become happy seeing that,I graduated as Faazil, got authorization of Silsila-e-Qadiriya,Got permission to write fatawas,started worlds first pure Sunni academy and started teaching Aalim course, but at same time when I look at some of other deeds,which i never even dreamt of ,happened,I feel sad & ashamed.May ALLAH azzawajal forgive all my previous sins and convert them into rewards and bless me with life in next year as per his & his Rasool's wish:Aameen.

Gande Nikamme Kameen,Manhge ho Kodi Ke Teen
Kaun Hamen Paalta,Tumpe Karoron Darood (Imam Ahmad Raza Khan Fazil-e-Barelvi)

Got Ifta Ijaza!!!!!!!!!!

Alhumdulillahi ala Ehsanihi,

Today I got oral ijaza from my ustaz Qazi-e-Bangalore Mufti Muhammed Aslam Misbahi to write fatwas.

As Jamia Bilal holds DastarBandi every second year,hence my formal dastarbandi will be held next year.I would be at Idara-e-Sharia Darul Ifta as Intern and assisstant Mufti,which would help me strengthen my knowledge and expertize in writing fatawas,inshahALLAH

My Ifta Sanad is as follows:

Muhammed Kashif->Mufti Aslam Misbahi-> Muhaqqiq Masail Jadeeda Mufti Nizamuddin Misbahi(Head Darul Ifta - Jamia Ashrafia) -> Faqeeh Aazam Hind Mufti Shariful Haq Amjadi ->SadrushSharia Mufti Amjad Ali Aazmi ->Aalahazrat Imam Ahmad Raza Khan

I am just so happy!!!!!!!