Split personality

per Wikipedia:

Dissociative identity disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis and describes a condition in which a person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities (known as alter egos or alters), each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment.

I guess I am also suffering from Split personality disorder.When I am at Office,I am different.
When I am at Home,I am Different. When I am with friends,I am different & When I am with other friends I am different.And every time totally different. Am I faking to myself or to the world?

I change so many faces every now and then.Is it only me or other people also experience this? Sometime I understand the amanat I have and sometime I totally forget that I'm a human. One moment I am with friends in Imama & Jhubba and other moment roaming with my friend in T-Shirt & Jeans.

I am tired of these changing faces & personalities.Why cant I stick to one,my true self?I Finally want to stick one face,my true face.I know its difficult,very difficult but I have to do it now.

The night of Shab-e-Bara'at is approaching fast.Book of deeds of previous years will be closed and new book will be opened and fate for next one year will be written. When I think of Book of deed which is going to be closed I become happy seeing that,I graduated as Faazil, got authorization of Silsila-e-Qadiriya,Got permission to write fatawas,started worlds first pure Sunni academy and started teaching Aalim course, but at same time when I look at some of other deeds,which i never even dreamt of ,happened,I feel sad & ashamed.May ALLAH azzawajal forgive all my previous sins and convert them into rewards and bless me with life in next year as per his & his Rasool's wish:Aameen.

Gande Nikamme Kameen,Manhge ho Kodi Ke Teen
Kaun Hamen Paalta,Tumpe Karoron Darood (Imam Ahmad Raza Khan Fazil-e-Barelvi)